oooh! i'm so desperate! i need to know how to make a blinkie.. i need a couple of em' for my blog! since Del is still on vacation.. having fun (she's modeling her bikini on a beach!!) i'm here.. being tortured by my own self!! i loove blogging but my knowledge isn't enough to show my blog to the world.. but here it is.. i've got a blog.. TRICIA!! PLEASE COME BACK!! I NEED YOU!! i need an animation software.. right after tutor i checked if there's one in cd factory but there ain't a single one. help!! im soo desperate with the things involving my blog.. tricia!! i'm gonna kill you for stealing leman from me!! wwwaahhhh!!!! help!! desperate child here!! incase you have.. please YM me at snoopy_loves_mea thanks!

2 days to go before the next road trip!! ARYA ABRA!!

xoxo
-holy-Mea-goth-
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i think i'm sick. i've got this glogged nose.. i hope this isn't an infection or something. i just had my 2nd year anniversary yesterday!! i don't wanna be sick again! so please pray for me!

tricia deluria is on a vacation right now.. til friday or saturday.. (modeling on a beach!!) so we are gonna postpone the fixing and decorating of my new layout. i can't wait to learn how to make my layout.. so watch out for it!

i started going to the tutor again.. since kanina. guess what? i started on math again! i'm so confused.. plus.. we've got this new teacher named michelle i guess.. i don't think she's really good in teaching.. aaaaahhhh!!

..xoxo..
..Mea..
..goth..
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haha! i forgot.. today is my life birthday!! its exactly 2 years after i got the major operation on my kidney.. luckily it was successful! and.. IM ALIVE!! woohoo!! thank you Jesus!

xoxo
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i'm planning to change my layout.. it's gonna be black and red.. again. i just can't get enough of black and red! tricia deluria is helping me do my layout.. she's so smart.. and friendly.. i really like her..

i really miss the FE na!! it's been a short.. short.. while, it was just last sunday that we left.. OMG!! katkat rullan told me that she wants to stay there forever. but i doubt it. isnt's she gonna miss her friends? haay.. i don't know if there's such a thing as a tricia deluria fan... but i am!! haha!!

xoxo
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ei im back! we just arrived coming from tagaytay.. it was this FE thing.. and its super duper fun! i met a lot of people.. last night tricia deluria and i didnt want this FE to end.. we were planning to stay up all night.. we didnt want the day to end. but it cant be.. so i just brought some memories.. here are they.. so fun!! super!!









HAPPY MEMORIES!!

xoxo
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tonight is the night before we go to tagaytay.. well.. actually its morning already.. early early early and i mean early morning.. i just finished packing my stuff including my cds, hats and don't forget.. my lippie gloss!! i cant live without my lip gloss.. it really soothes lips.. haha! its kinda a minty lip gloss.. that freezes your lips the moment you put some on.. back to what i was saying.. we are going to tagaytay.. but our family is gonna run a lil late coz my two buttiehead bros are gonna go home late from school coz of this CAT thing.. yah know the marching marching.. "sir, yes sir!" thing. anyway.. i think yah get that already.. mum is still trying to see if everyone's bags are packed.. you know.. toothbrush, underwear, shampoo, medicines.. but i.. i check the snacks.. some of this and that.. this community changed my life.. ive got more friends than the usual.. and i found the inner me.. im not kiddin'.. last year we were the one served, we did a lot of great stuff.. the sponsoring families made us do a family cheer.. so marco did a tribe dance i guess.. dom did an ocho ocho.. it was really fun.. me, dad, mum, and giammy just raised our hand high and moved it in circles like cheering for our favorite basketball team.. it was the 1st time i saw my two bros do a weird but nice dance. they're the shy ones actually.. but hey they did it. this year our batch is gonna be the sponsor.. we are the ones welcoming the new families.. we are gonna ask them to make their own family cheer and i guess a skit too.. we kids, sponsoring kids are gonna do a skit too.. but we are divided into groups.. by new families.. if you get what i mean.. im gonna do a skit about the perlada family.. me and trisha deluria.. but there aint no words commin out from our mouths.. incase there is.. maybe i wouldnt be fit for that skit.. coz i get tongue tied infront of a lot of peepz.. i need to keep this kinda memories... that reminds me! i need to charge my video cam to capture the moments!! see yah soon!!

xoxo,
Mea Figueras

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i felt like shouting on the top of my lungs.. thinking this would clear my problems away. giving everyone the silent treatment.. felt like its hard to think, hard to speak, hard to move when you've got heavy problems. "thud! thud! thud!" i tried banging my head on the wall but it just gives you a headache which makes it much worst. pray that my problems will be gone just like that. but its impossible. i believe in the phrase,"nothing is impossible in this world" but not this time. its like you're drowning at your own mind. its like you're struggling to breath from your own blood. time just pass very quickly. when the moment comes, you're scared. you need to face you're problems with all you soul and guts in order to move on with a clean life. everyone has problems. i have problems. you have problems. i can't stand it!! i just need to relax. that's what they say.. relax?? relax?? will it ever cure you're problems? watda!! do you think suicide is the answer? X_X

Undiscovered
Ashlee Simpson
Autobiography

Take it back, take it all back now
The things i gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,
I miss that now
I can't try any harder than i do
All the reasons i gave, excuses i made for you
Are broken in two

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

Don't walk away

Touch me now how i wanna feel
Something so real, please remind me
My love, and take me back
Cuz im so in love with what we were
Im not breathing im suffocating without you
Do u feel it to

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

When im in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
Its then i know my heart is whole
Theres a million reasons why i cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz i dont wana be alone

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you, I need you

Cuz i cant fake and I cant hate
But it's my heart
Thats about to break
You're all i need
I'm on my knees
Watch me bleed
Would you listen please
I give in
I breathe out
I want you, theres no doubt
I freak out, I'm left out
Without you, im without
I'm crossed out
I'm kicked out
I cry out
I reach out
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away

this is max thieriot from the movie catch that kid. im a big big big fan of him.. coz he's really cute!!

sowee for not posting for a long time.. im soo sorry!!
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Story Of The Year - Anthem Of Our Dying Day

The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying!!!

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
And you gasp for air tonight!!

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

Our dying day
Of our dying!!!