oh boo! its so unfair.. well here's how it started. my ipod got damaged right? then yesterday me and mum went to rockwell to have it fixed. they said i should leave it to them for 2-3 weeks coz they might send my ipod to singapore to have it fixed. if its really damaged then they will change it to a brand new one for free! same color and stuff.. but there won't be any engraving.. boo! i need the engraving!

shitty!!! i dunno what happened to my ipod. my ipod got destroyed. i dunno how or why! i cant move on! i love my ipod!! waaaah!! i cant live without it! so when you see me silent or stoned.. its because of my ipod! waaaaah! so if you know any bands/songs from my ipod please tell me. i need to write them all. kasi pag pinaayos may chance daw na mawala lahat ng songs grrrr.! help me!! i wanna die!!!!!!!!

im gonna post the stuff that happened for the last 2 days. coz today i havent done anything yet. maybe ill post my today's activity later.

Saturday, July 16, '05 - i had to wake up really early, 4:30 to be exact. i ate breakfast. had my uber cold bath. and i checked my things if they were complete. the time was 5:30 when me, and dad were ready. we waited outside the gate coz tita isabel said that we were leaving at 5:30 am. so we waited. we waited. we waited. ate grace took yuriko out for a walk, and i joined them since wowie isnt there yet. then harry the beagle came along.. yuriko and harry jumped and jumped infront of each other (jump, not hump Xp) then the van of wowie had arrived. we placed all our things there and hoped in. roadtrip! the going part was really awkward. coz me, regine and wows kept on singing and arvy kept on shuting us up. rude. we pretty muched sang along the road even though arvy kept shuting us up. we arrived at the destined place.. we were the 1st ones! (the early bird should have a price!). so me, wows and reg went off to find the pool. it was just a few steps from where we were. the pool was round. and looks like an ordinary pool. we thought that it was extra ordinary coz my dad said it came from a spring, which i mistakenly heard. the pool was filled with mineral water, (we could drink from it! haha) so it would look like a spring. the others arrived shortly after we arrived. the service team teens were all at a bus. and it made me kinda jealous coz its fun at a bus where all of you can enjoy. but i had fun with wowie and regine at our own lil roadtrip. i started at the registry together with gab and joyjoy.. well it didnt look like we were really the ones in registry coz everyone helped! yeah! then we got ready our rooms then had lil snacks then we went to the conference hall. ok, they assigned who me and wowie were handling. the 13 year old girls, namely daday santos, regine catabijan, bernadine ...., and joy .... (sorry dont know their sir names). wowie was a discussion group leader, dgl, while im her assistant discussion group leader, adgl. before any talk, we started two games. the first one was social bingo. everyone had fun i guess. and our group won one time. and the "lipgloss girls" won twice. then came the caterpillar game. we blindfolded our group and we guided them anywhere. we made them jump, duck, crawl?? for no reason. haha. that was really fun. then came the talks. it made the other participants and service team drowsy coz we all woke up early i guess. but everyone came through, after every talk the dgls together with the adgls had their own discussion together with their groups. then snacks. then talk again. then lunch then talk. then at 4:30 they made us make a presentation. the girl group merged and the boy groups merged too. so we practiced upto 6:30. the girls presented a twisted fairytale. me and wowie had a fight scene.. oh so cool! haha. the boys did a dance number. the song was first day funk. haha! it was cool and funny at the same time. after that the days activity was over. kuya glen talked to the service team for any comments.. everyone agreed that they were having fun. swimming was after. wowie and the rest swam and a lil didnt. i too didnt. i really didnt feel like swimming that time. wowie did a olympic dive with her clothes on. i was there watching with the rest while listening to music. after swimming. half of the service team had snacks at the kitchen, acoustic jamming, and and make chika.. haha! we planned not to sleep but tita janet and tita mila went upstairs to tell us that we should sleep already coz the other participants are following us. some of the service team that didnt have any rooms planned to sleep at the conference hall. and others with rooms shifted to sleep at the conference hall too.

Sunday, July 17, '05 - we weren't sleepy yet at 12 mn. so we played cards. the door was locked so when one of the titas or titos knocked we would all pretend to llie down and sleep. it was a smudged glass door by the way. so we played 1-2-3 pass. and who ever loses will be asked a question. it was really interesting, everyone promised that no secret would be spread out of the group. 1st was iky, he was asked a personal question. he didnt want to answer it coz the girl was in the circle. and i knew who it was. after a few games, tita janet knocked. we all jumped out of our places and lied down in any way. it was so weird coz we were out of bound from the bed. for exaple, the bed was beside us, we were lying beside the bed on the floor. just to make tita janet believe that we were asleep. but tita didnt fall for it coz through the smudged glass door she saw our outline sitting in a circle playing something. joy was ontop of the cards trying to hide it. me and wowie were giggling already while trying to be asleep. everyone stood up the moment tita asked for the cards. we were giggling while looking for it. tita janet told us to sleep already so we went to our beds and layed down. the moment she left we all moved and sat down and told stories and stuff. we saw a light comming from a flashlight so we ran to our matresses and layed down again. haha. when the light faded, we did what we wanted to do again. me and lara felt hungry so we tried creeping out of the hall and to the kitchen. joyjoy and kuya justin came too.. we got food. yummy! haha, and we brought them to the hall. after eating we found wowie and gab fast asleep. we pictured gab while he was asleep. after minutes passed. some got really drowsy and sleepy. me, joyjoy, lara and kuya justine werent. (kuya justine had no plans of sleeping) so me, lara and joy talked about girly stuff to get us sleepy. lara got drowsy first. so we let here sleep. me and joyjoy lied down too and traded stories until we felt really sleepy. kuya justin had signs that he really isnt gonna sleep so we let him be and slept. kuya ron woke us up with an alarm, but not just an ordinary alarm, kuya ron used arvy's speaker and played halelujah by bamboo. that made us get out of bed, fixed everything, and let the boys carry the matresses. we went down to see if the shower rooms were vacant. surprisingly they werent vacant. well the participants were using it, their call time was 6 am, we really alarmed for 5 so we would get to the shower first. haaay. since we, the service team, are the role models around we let the participants take the shower rooms first. we were the last ones. after the shower, we had snacks, then a talk by ate lala, then lunch, then a mass. the priest didnt look like he's a priest. he looks so mean. oh yeah. we sang the wrong song at the wrong time during the mass. coz the service team did the singing. haha! and the priest gave us a mean look. rude. after the mass we had lunch then went home. the moment i arrived home, i dropped dead sa bed. haay. i am still soo sleepy ngaun.

-im back! haha! i thought i wouldnt be able to use the comp coz i thought my brothers would be using it. there was a big thing a while ago but i dont wanna post it. its too personal and complicated.. i think. all i can say is.. "errr....". oh yeah, i wasne able to go to the parlor. darn.

-wah! cant wait for tommorow, reatreat. haay. im gonna do double work. but its ok, i wanna get really really tired. im gonna be at the registry with joyjoy and gabie. ill try to be quiet at that part coz i feel like i would be out of place coz gabie and joyjoy are close.. and im just.. err.. there! then i would be an adgl, dgl would be wowie, my place was changed. we're gonna handle 13 year old girls. since there would be 2 groups maybe ate sandra is on the second group. anyway, i cant wait to see the place. my dad said that there would be a pool that comes from a spring.

-waaah! the charger of my ipod got destroyed, i think its fake. so my mom ordered another one from tito greg and a glass cover for my ipod.. (oh poor ipod, this time i shall save your body from scratches of doom!! haha!). so i texted wowie if she could bring her ipod charger eheh.. hope she does!

-ok, i know that it might be too early to post my day's activity but i dont think i might be using the computer again later, im gonna sleep err... early? tonight coz we'll be traveling early tommorow. but anyways, i think that the "tropa" will hang-out at wowie's place.. as usual. wait! before that, i think im going to the salon and have a threading. hope that comes through! ok, back to the hang-out thing. yeah yeah. im gonna show nige, wow, euni, and reg the songs that we could use to create a skit/music video courtesy of.. ahem ahem. truly yours.. moi! haha! yeah, but i need their opinions too. hope dean would hang-out with ken and ardee so i could ask him the story thinggy that he doesn't wanna tell me what it's all about. grr.. then, i think im gonna ask wowie to bring extra throw pillow, a small insy winsy bag and her ipod charger for me to borrow... bwahahahah!

-there's this f*****g person, that i f*****g hate! i really wanna f*****g kick that persons f*****g a**! but that f*****g person doesnt f*****g know that i f*****g hate him/her that f*****g much!! die you f*****g person die!!!

i really had a weird day.. i consider it as bad. coz my aura was so weird. 1st coz i was feeling something that i cant understand.. (still trying to figure that out 'til now) 2nd.. is because of the talk me and nigel had. i got a little annoyed.. but my annoyance faded quickly. but he keeps on insisting that im still annoyed coz of the way i stare at him, and the way my attitude changed.. and that made me annoyed again. but i didnt bother.. so it faded quickly again. from the start of the day i felt my aura was really bad. i was trying to be malikot or maingay or happy or gay or something to get me energetic or hyper. but.. i really cant help it. my mood just shuts down and shows another different me which is not me.. labo. then 3rd.. when we went to the park we, it was so dark that martha didnt wanna go.. we tried to put on the light but failed to do it. so we just headed for somewhere else. i felt that someone was following us. an entity. i didnt look back coz i know i would make a connection that would change my whole life. it made me act in a different way. i didnt know what happened when we were walking. i just knew that i felt someone or something block my mind. its just so weird. until now i feel like my aura is still freakin bad.