it's been a while since i've blogged. i've been busy with hanging out with my friends, fixing a couple of stuff, searching for my true self and busy being tired.

the year is about to end. a lot has happened this year. good or bad. i met a lot of new friends, learned a lot about my surroundings. i also learned a lot about myself.

i hope that this coming year would be a blast, just like this year or maybe more. college is coming for me. i still feel nervous whenever i think about it. but, oh well. i better try and be myself. :)

20 days left and i would be in denial ---ika nga ni trish. i'm not sure what to expect when i turn 17. will i be more mature? or will i still be me? will it make any difference? 17? is it just another? holler if you wanna answer my question.

i might play the drums on my birthday party.. i said, i MIGHT!

P.S. if you wanna be treated with buckets o' beer, go to eastwood on the 17th. :D

happy new year, loves! :)

im feeling sucky and annoyed right now.

sucky because i can hear ___________. it seems like i dont care.. well, yeah half of it. at the same time it hurts. really hurts. and im trying not to be affected by it. i noticed that its been uh.. happening a lot lately, all over again. i care, but at the same time i dont. im so numb right now.. looking for a blade na walang kalawang this time.

annoyed because of someone. my world is going through hell right now. why? even if its mababaw, because everything has something to do with the closest people in my life.

yeah.. still looking for a blade.
i want a lancet.

xoxo,
doomed and bleeding

who sent it to some guy named joseph's phone who sent it to ria's phone who sent it to space's phone who sent it to mine. :D

1. What is a perfect day for you?
the perfect day for me would be spending time with my family and friends. having time for myself to think about how my day went or how my day will go the next day.

2. Which fictional character from a movie, book, video game, or TV show do you most identify with?
jeon ji-hyun from my sassy girl. i can be tougher than guys sometimes, but i also cry when i have problems.

3. Which famous person, living or deceased, do you most admire?
Which famous person, living or deceased, do you most admire?
not in order.

16. Top 5 Favorite Male Celebs
1) johnny depp
2) ashton kutcher
3) chad michael murray
4) shun oguri
5) matsumoto jun

not in order.

17. Top 5 Favorite Female Celebs
1) jeong ji-hyun
2) iza calsado
3) hilarie burton
4) sofia bush
5) angelina jolie

not in order.

18. Top 5 Favorite Movies
1) eurotrip
2) my sassy girl
3) il mare
4) the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe
5) battle royale

not in order.

19. Top 5 Favorite Songs
1) fallen on deaf ears - urbandub
2) one and only you - parokya ni edgar
3) don't worry baby - the beatles
4) come and go with me - the dell vikings
5) wala nang iba - the bloomfields

not in order.

20. Top 5 Favorite TV shows
1) grey's anatomy
2) so you think you can dance
3) project runway
4) one tree hill
5) that 70's show

not in order.

21. Top 5 Favorite Bands/Singers
1) the bloomfields
2) the beatles
3) sunflower day camp
4) urbandub
5) parokya ni edgar

not in order.

22. Top 5 Favorite Fashion Items
1) jeans
2) funky top
3) earrings
4) necklace with pendant
5) black nail polish

not in order.

23. Top 5 Favorite Beauty Items
1) eye liner
2) lip balm
3) lash curler
4) brush
5) moisturizer

not in order.

24. Top 5 Favorite Gadgets
1) computer
2) mp3
3) cellphone
4) video game console
5) camera

not in order.

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yes, nagtataka rin ako kung pano to nakarating sa cellphone at sinend sa ibang tao. kaya ako, pinost ko na lang sa blog. hahaha!

i went to the tutor place to study. study anything, though my brain was already on vacation since last week. my teacher told me to study english. bleh. she knows that am good in english (the subject. yes.) so instead, she changed her mind and gave me a student. JAM!!! my grade 3 knoller bebe ghurl! i taught her sibika. well, not really. i just told her to read pages 182-230. haha im mean! neh. i just told her to read 182-184. after jam, teacher ludy gave me a grade 1 kid from kotska who is madly in love with mah bebe ghurl, jam. tsssk. paolo's weirdulized. he invented the word kissapalooza! damn! he blows kisses a lot, sending it to jam and err. me. im comfortable with kids, yeah. but paolo's different. jam is really scared of paolo. yeah. paolo chases jam around the tutor and when paolo catches jam, he kisses her. err. yeah puppy love.. for paolo. horror flick for jam. ehehehanyway.. i told paolo to call me and jam, 'ate' since yeah, we're older than him. duuuuuh!! he understood. but he wont stop chasing my bebe ghurl! guess what i did? haha i stopped their world war! haha. i talked to pao regarding all this. he should respect jam and all since she's older than him. and yeah. i noticed that paolo's harassing jam. wahahhaah i think that's not a good word for a bunch of kiddos. anyway, the point is.. i stopped the puppeh love of pao. he's gonna search for better girls daw. sexier. prettier. and dumber and blonde. i dunno why he said that, but he should go to hooters. lotsa blondes. :> yak! 6 years old, pumuntang hooters. wahahahha!

i feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel the christmas vibe na talaga. i started downloading funkalicious christmas songs to enhance (?!?) the christmas vibe. errr.. di ata. ang init eh! bwisit! pero at least.. meron kahit onti. ------------- currently listening to parokya ni edgar's simbang gabi. :)

ok. im really gonna play anorexic starting 3... 2... 1.... NOW! haha. plump, i am. haha! im gonna do this till the 22nd. shet. wala na. i better stay away from cookies, chocolate, and lollipops. eeeeeeeh! coffee.. where are you? ok. food buddy ko na lang muna yung caffeine.

crunkkkkkk!! looking forward to being crunk on the 20th... ata. shet wag pala. dami ko pang aayusin nun! shetttt! my brain, heart, and soul are on vacation!! i feel empty.


ciao. happy xmas, loves!

hahaha! kinikilig ako ngayon dahil lang sa isang dedication ng isang vocalista ng isang malupet na banda! hahaha! pramis! di ko mapigilan na mag smile! salamat ate ian para sa pag kuha ng dedication. hahaha! alam kong nashy ka pa, pero salamat rin! haha! tatag ng loob, mehn! :))

Mea (12/13/2006 12:13:42 PM): how did you ask jay to sign the pic nga pala? ;;)
Ian (12/13/2006 12:17:42 PM): teka, kwento ko. will finish something lang. 5 minutes!
Mea (12/13/2006 12:17:46 PM): ok :D
Ian (12/13/2006 12:21:17 PM): ok, game
Mea (12/13/2006 12:21:22 PM): :D
Ian (12/13/2006 12:21:28 PM): so he arrived na, and i had the photo
Ian (12/13/2006 12:21:30 PM): i had the pen
Ian (12/13/2006 12:21:35 PM): but i was hiya :D
Mea (12/13/2006 12:21:50 PM): nashy :))
Ian (12/13/2006 12:21:58 PM): so i just waited for the right time na the others werent around kasi i was hiya
Mea (12/13/2006 12:22:05 PM): was it the voicing thinggy?
Ian (12/13/2006 12:22:09 PM): yeah
Mea (12/13/2006 12:22:24 PM): all of em was there?
Ian (12/13/2006 12:22:31 PM): so when he was just hanging around, he was at the table near my desk, i asked him over. sabi ko jay lika dito
Ian (12/13/2006 12:22:50 PM): tapos i had the print. i put a post-it on it with your name on it, so he'll get the spelling right
Ian (12/13/2006 12:23:00 PM): so i said: pwedeng magpa sign?
Ian (12/13/2006 12:23:06 PM): for my friend? picture nyo :)
Ian (12/13/2006 12:23:12 PM): i looked hiya ata hahaha
Mea (12/13/2006 12:23:15 PM): :))
Ian (12/13/2006 12:23:37 PM): ayun, so he asked where it was and i said dish. tapos natatawa sya sa itsura nyo kasi parang gigil sya :))
Mea (12/13/2006 12:24:06 PM): :))
Mea (12/13/2006 12:24:24 PM): hahah nakakakilig :))
Mea (12/13/2006 12:25:32 PM): salamat ulet!! :))
Ian (12/13/2006 12:26:07 PM): you're welcome :)

ayan! haha! ilabyoo ate ian! >:D<:* here's the pic. oo na! i look like shit! ang init kasi dun eh! hahahahahha!

don't mind the title, please. :D

i have another starbucks card. hahaha! but i doubt that im gonna be able to use it. i need to help my friends get their own bubblee pa. hahaha. pero incase na rin, i can use my new starbucks card when im alone or with someone who has no card. haha!

ok. while walking to a mini store from the tutor kanina, i somehow felt like looking up. and yeah, i did look up while walking. then i saw a snake. a snake on a tree. i'm sure that it was a snake. verrry sure. it was moving.. like a snake. so it IS a snake. i stared at it for a couple of seconds then left. haha. then i returned after buying, i looked up again. the snake was on another side of the tree this time. yes. it was a snake. i stared for a couple of seconds again. then left it be. haha!

errr.. i was really hoping to get my CSB exam results nung dec. 6 pa dapat. pero, marami atang tao pumunta nung date na yun kaya wag muna. then dapat ngayon raw sabi ni mum. di nanaman tuloy. hopefully tomorrow daw pupunta si mum. sobrang nabibitin ako eh. i really wanna study in CSB. tsssk. sumasakit na puso ko.

tsssssssssssssssssk!! he IMed me! fack!!!

tim: hey, break na kami ni iyami.

and what do i care? fak!

its true right? speechless. why? can you exactly describe what life means?

people are people no matter who they are. gay, lesbians, or herms. they're people. tall, short, skinny, or chubby. they're people.

why do people make a BIG deal out of celebrities? people scream when they see one. ask for autographs and stuff. and after that, they would boast it to their friends that they saw him or her. had a picture with him or her. an autograph of him or her.

some say, people look up to them. but when they read something like, "si ganito, nakipag tananan kay ganito", or "si ganito sinampal si direk ganito kasi hindi nagustuhan ang role sa pelikula". people then turn their back on that celebrity and chooses another one to bow down to or something.

ok, i bow down to SOME celebrities too. like IZA CALZADO and LUCY TORRES-GOMEZ. they're just absolutely stunning in every angle. every angle you look, you'll just see FABULOUS written all over it.

i met this band a few months ago. MOST of my friends knows about it na. hahahah! but yeah. anyway, at first i thought stars are like, snobbish. or they have their own world that we can't relate too. but just recently, i found out that they're just people too. they tease, they laugh, they have problems, they smile, and they have a normal life too.

well, though i still don't understand why some celebrities have this ego problem. sheesh. life. it's speechless.